January 27th, 2008

Supernatural, SamDean

Supernatural Wishes

Many times have I reflected on certain scenes of ‘Supernatural’ in my mind. 
There is so much food for thought in that precious and
beloved series. Lately, 
I’ve been missing my kids terribly. I want to see them. Be with them. Enjoy 
their company. I wish we lived closer. I’m feeling sorry for my self when 
suddenly, there’s a scene from ‘Salvation’ that just appears out of nowhere. 
In it, John is talking to his boys. His words are so full of sadness and regret. 
He voices the
ways he wishes things could have been different for his family. 
are his words to Sam; ‘I want you to go to school. I want Dean to have 
a home” and with his voice breaking with emotion, “I want Mary alive.” But 
none of those wishes were meant to be. In the harsh light of reality
they had 
to play the hand they were dealt. Do the best they could under
circumstances. In their world, as in ours, wishes are just that……
But, we do get to see a glimpse of how things could have been different 
through Dean’s eyes in ‘What is and What Should Never Be’. Those wishes 
come from his deep and abiding love for his family. His wish for a better life 
for all of them. And in this alternate universe, on the surface, things do 
seem wonderful and somewhat peaceful. Sammy and Jess are getting 
married. Their Mom is alive and well. Dean, himself, has a beautiful lady who 
loves him unconditionally. Almost a dream come true.
Okay, so everything’s not perfect. Their Dad is gone. But Dean even finds 
comfort in that. At least it wasn’t some evil SOB that took him down but a 
stroke – at home – in his bed. Much more troubling for Dean, though, is 
his relationship with Sam. They don’t get along so well. Sam doesn’t really 
know him and trusts him even less. That seems to hurt Dean
the most…. 
knowing Sam wants nothing to do with him. Dean tries to find a way for them 
to get closer and even suggests that they go hunting
together but Sam shoots 
that idea down in no time flat.  As my Uncle CJ
used to say ‘With everything 
good, there’s something bad.’ And that bad
thing was Dean’s relationship with 
his brother. But I haven’t mentioned the second half of Uncle CJ’s sage 
words…. ‘With everything bad, there’s
something Good’. And the good for 
Dean was the fact that his wishes
weren’t real. In reality, Sammy is there for 
him, filled with love and concern.
Just as it should be. As Sam told him on a 
later episode; ‘Be careful what
you wish for.’
The human spirit is strong. We rise to the occasion.  And the Winchesterboys 
have risen to the occasion time and time again. Magnificently. And
they did 
it – together – despite what happened in their lives or more likely,
of what happened in their lives. They have dealt with horrendous
loss and 
almost insurmountable odds and have become stronger for it. The way 
things were meant to be. They’re doing what they were meant to do.
people, hunting things – the family business.  At the end of ‘What is
What Should Never Be’ Sam and Dean try to come to terms with the kind of 
life Dean wished for and the kind of life they must now live.
Dean: You should’ve seen it, Sam. Our lives… You were such a wussy.

Sam: So we didn’t get along then, huh?

Dean: Nah

Sam: Yeah

Dean: I thought it was supposed to be this perfect fantasy.
          It was just a wish. I wished for Mom to live. Mom never died. We never
          went hunting and you and me – we just never…..you know…

Sam: Yeah. Well, I’m glad we do. And I’m glad you dug yourself out, Dean.
          Most people wouldn’t of had the strength.

Dean: You had Jess. Mom was gonna have grandkids.

Sam: Yeah but, Dean, it wasn’t real.

Dean: I know. But I wanted to stay.
          I wanted to stay so bad.
          I mean, ever since Dad… All…all I could think about is how much this
          job’s cost us. We’ve lost so much. We’ve sacrificed so much.

Sam: But people are alive because of you. It’s worth it, Dean. It is.
          It’s not fair…and, you know…it hurt’s like Hell, but it’s worth it.

And that about says it all. I love those Winchester brothers.
But I still miss my kids.