Many times have I reflected on certain scenes of ‘Supernatural’ in my mind.
There is so much food for thought in that precious and beloved series. Lately,
I’ve been missing my kids terribly. I want to see them. Be with them. Enjoy
their company. I wish we lived closer. I’m feeling sorry for my self when
suddenly, there’s a scene from ‘Salvation’ that just appears out of nowhere.
In it, John is talking to his boys. His words are so full of sadness and regret.
He voices the ways he wishes things could have been different for his family.
These are his words to Sam; ‘I want you to go to school. I want Dean to have
a home” and with his voice breaking with emotion, “I want Mary alive.” But
none of those wishes were meant to be. In the harsh light of reality they had
to play the hand they were dealt. Do the best they could under the
circumstances. In their world, as in ours, wishes are just that……wishes.
But, we do get to see a glimpse of how things could have been different
through Dean’s eyes in ‘What is and What Should Never Be’. Those wishes
come from his deep and abiding love for his family. His wish for a better life
for all of them. And in this alternate universe, on the surface, things do
seem wonderful and somewhat peaceful. Sammy and Jess are getting
married. Their Mom is alive and well. Dean, himself, has a beautiful lady who
loves him unconditionally. Almost a dream come true.
Okay, so everything’s not perfect. Their Dad is gone. But Dean even finds
comfort in that. At least it wasn’t some evil SOB that took him down but a
stroke – at home – in his bed. Much more troubling for Dean, though, is
his relationship with Sam. They don’t get along so well. Sam doesn’t really
know him and trusts him even less. That seems to hurt Dean the most….
knowing Sam wants nothing to do with him. Dean tries to find a way for them
to get closer and even suggests that they go hunting together but Sam shoots
that idea down in no time flat. As my Uncle CJ used to say ‘With everything
good, there’s something bad.’ And that bad thing was Dean’s relationship with
his brother. But I haven’t mentioned the second half of Uncle CJ’s sage
words…. ‘With everything bad, there’s something Good’. And the good for
Dean was the fact that his wishes weren’t real. In reality, Sammy is there for
him, filled with love and concern. Just as it should be. As Sam told him on a
later episode; ‘Be careful what you wish for.’
The human spirit is strong. We rise to the occasion. And the Winchesterboys
have risen to the occasion time and time again. Magnificently. And they did
it – together – despite what happened in their lives or more likely, because
of what happened in their lives. They have dealt with horrendous loss and
almost insurmountable odds and have become stronger for it. The way
things were meant to be. They’re doing what they were meant to do. Saving
people, hunting things – the family business. At the end of ‘What is and
What Should Never Be’ Sam and Dean try to come to terms with the kind of
life Dean wished for and the kind of life they must now live.
Dean: You should’ve seen it, Sam. Our lives… You were such a wussy.
Sam: So we didn’t get along then, huh?
Dean: I thought it was supposed to be this perfect fantasy.
It was just a wish. I wished for Mom to live. Mom never died. We never
went hunting and you and me – we just never…..you know…
Sam: Yeah. Well, I’m glad we do. And I’m glad you dug yourself out, Dean.
Most people wouldn’t of had the strength.
Dean: You had Jess. Mom was gonna have grandkids.
Sam: Yeah but, Dean, it wasn’t real.
Dean: I know. But I wanted to stay.
I wanted to stay so bad.
I mean, ever since Dad… All…all I could think about is how much this
job’s cost us. We’ve lost so much. We’ve sacrificed so much.
Sam: But people are alive because of you. It’s worth it, Dean. It is.
It’s not fair…and, you know…it hurt’s like Hell, but it’s worth it.
And that about says it all. I love those Winchester brothers.
But I still miss my kids.